Let the Fun Begin!

October 9, 2010 in Affirmations, Health & Wellness, Self-Discovery Exercises by Tara

This year I’ve had an enormous desire to introduce a massive amount of fun into my life. Not that I haven’t endured any fun at all. I have. I’ve just gone through, what feels like, a dormant stage the past few years. Digging deep within myself, intensely soul searching and becoming a home body, in comparison to someone who was the definition of a social butterfly, out almost every day/night of the week. The extrovert who decided to play an introvert. Or could it be the other way around?

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I’m ready to break out of that pattern. Not from the continued learning and growing. That will always be. I quite enjoy that. I’m ready to take action, to spread my wings and fly high, like the Phoenix that I am. I’ve done a lot of realeasing and come to many realizations, yet for some reason I do not feel fully expressed. I don’t feel I’m shining as bright as I could, or as I have. There is something inside of me that is holding back, that feels out of tune and I have no idea why. I kind of feel like the Princess and the Pea. Whatever it is, is quite small in size, yet I know it is there. I’m fixin’ for a tune up, ready to have my antenna adjusted.

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I’m sure a lot of people I know would not agree with this. I’m pretty outgoing. Boy, are they in for a surprise when I burst out of this cocoon. Because, I’m about to.

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Today, I did a vibrational meditation that I learned from Penny Peirce in her book, “Frequency – the Power of Personal Vibration”.  She has you imagine that you are in an elevator. You begin on the 1st floor and make your way up to the 9th floor, and back down again. A number (from 1-9) will intuitively come to you and you get off on that floor. You take note of what you experience on that floor – what you see, the smells, how you feel, what you hear. And eventually you are greeted by your guide who will give you a message.

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Before I even went into this, I thought of the number 3. As soon as that happened, my mind chatter kicked in. “Tara, you are thinking of 3 because that is one of your favorite numbers. Stop thinking of 3.” Haha. Ok.

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I begin the vibrational meditation a little anxious, starting on the first floor. I reach the 3rd floor and I’m instantly drawn to it. I tell myself to continue up. When I get to the 5th floor I see many joyful images. The floor comes alive. And when I get up to the 9th floor I feel absolute peace. I make my way back down to the 3rd floor. I decided not to resist it. I got off the elevator.

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I walked out of the elevator and found myself in a beautiful world, will rolling hills covered in the greenest grass. The sun was shinning in the distance. I was instantly attracted and ran to it. As I was running, the world turned into a cartoonish animation. The change threw me off my course. I stopped running for the sun and turned a corner. Everything looked real again.

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I found myself in a garden, or was it a park? Perhaps a garden in a park? I felt like I was on an Estate in Long Island, NY or possibly a hidden, quiet spot in Central Park. There was a generic picnic basket laid out on a white and red checkered blanket. A silhouette of someones body began to form on the blanket. I thought I was starting to envision a mate, that I was controlling the imagery, so I made them disappear. (This is all about imagination, I’m not sure why I stopped the flow. I guess I wanted to see what would happen without me putting much thought into it.)

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I sat on the crisp blanket and opened up the inviting basket. It was filled with a variety of fresh fruit. Suddenly, along the outside of the basket, an abundance of fruit magically appeared. I took in the smell of the heavenly fruits while the birds chirped in the nearby trees and bushes. So sweet; the fruit and the scene. The smell reminded me of something. Something from my past, yet I was unable to place the memory. I felt happy. I started to eat a juicy, rich mango that had a string of deep, dark, purplish blackberries hanging from it. As soon as I started to eat it, I was already finished. Time had an awkward frame, just like my dreams. I looked inside the basket for something else to feast upon and saw an endless amount of plump, lush, bombshell red, strawberries. I grabbed one and began to pull it from the bottomless basket, when a huge furry spider latched onto it. I started to see more insects, and thought, “Noooooooo!” (Earlier today I found 2 Daddy Long Legs in the house. So this may have been why these guys showed up in the meditation.) As soon as that happened, I was startled by the spider and by my new kitten – who simultaneously jumped on me. Instead of disrupting the meditation with opening my eyes and moving her, I decided to bring her into it. I figured she would scare off the spiders. And she did. I kissed her on the head and thanked her. With my eyes still closed I places her gently on the bed with no further interruptions.

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I was then greeted by a tall male figure; my delightful angelic guide. He said to me, “Tara, you are a beautiful child. This world (the one we are familiar with) is an illusion. Don’t take anything too seriously. Especially, yourself. If you want to have fun, you have to be fun. You can have fun anywhere.”

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Did he just bring up fun? He sure did! All year I have been searching for things to do in order to have fun. Meanwhile, the fun is me! I am fun! If I want to have fun, I have to be fun!

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I know I am fun person and I’m capable of entertaining myself (for hours) and provoking a hearty laugh fest. However, the message from my guide, my subconscious, wherever you think it came from, allowed me to realize that fun is always present. It is always available to me. I no longer have to search for something to do in order to have fun. Being me is fun in itself!

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Fun, like many things, is a state of mind.

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Know that you can have fun no matter what, because you are indeed fun yourself! I encourage you to have fun being you! Give it a go, fun-sters!

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Beauty From Love: “I am the pure essence of fun. I have fun no matter where I am, be it alone or in the company of others. I always make time for the fun inside of me to be present. The simplest things in life are some of the funnest things I do. Brushing my teeth is fun! Driving to work is fun! Work is fun! Playing with animals is fun! Cleaning laundry is fun!”

Fabulously flaunting fun forever,

Tara :)

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